June 12 26 2024
LIVING IS EASY WITH BOTH EYES CLOSED
Hello internet users alike, it is me, ACE, and some major things are happening in my life. I am currently transferring from my current university to another because i genuinely believe if I stayed there I would have ended it. The dread of waking up, loneliness, sleeping in the same clothes I wore the day before, and quite honestly the people there made school horrible. Though i am not giving up on my academic journey, no no no, but I am continuing it somewhere else! In all seriousness I wasn't happy there and it reflected in my grades and the want to stay home every time i visited on the weekends. To add onto this abundant amount of stress, my therapist says I should consult my doctor for a psych scan eval thing to see if I have any learning disabilities or even the possibility of asd. That's got me shaken up for some reason, mainly because if the tests come back positive or something then it means it was me all along. Not the professors, not my peers, but me.. I wouldn't think less of myself if I did get any of those diagnoses, but it would be a big reality check for me. Though all I have to do is think positively about my whole situation if I am going to get by sane.
Besides all that personal junk, my exploration into the unknown persists! Highways, convenience stores, and getting scared by 11 year old boys are all the challenges I must face as I continue to live my life. With my new job that I will soon embark on, I realized just recently that I will be dealing with little children with their high pitched voices and their skibidi toilet sigma ohio rizz refrences that will, in the end, make me want to cry a million rivers. If you said the words "fanum tax kai cenat skibidi rizz ohio" in a sentence to me in person I think I would have a public meltdown in front of everyone. I mustn't have ill faith on the youth, the future leaders of tomorrow or something, but cmon I'M SCARED!!! Dark times are upon us friends..we must prevail in the hour of the dark night. I hate John Lennon so much.
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